Together, we stand,
Side by side, before the edge,
of the world.
Into infinity stretches the unknown,
Inky black waves of uncertainty,
Threatening to engulf us,
Should we fall.
I glance at you,
Standing beside me,
As the night bears down.
And though the sun has long departed,
Our surroundings are not dark.
I think back,
To the days of our past,
Brightened by smiles and laughter.
Then, with my eyes wide open,
I take the first leap.
I only hope you will be there beside me.
Today, I do not need help.
Today, I can stand.
Resolute against the failures of yesterday,
Firm in the face of the trials of today.
Weakness melts in the fire of my resolve.
Today, I am strong.
Tomorrow, I may weep,
Despondant and gasping great gulps of air,
Laden with self-pity and regret,
But today I am strong.
Today I can stand.
Will you find me,
When I'm lost,
Wandering in that place,
That place without light,
With all the muffled sounds,
And a million miles separating us.
I find myself there often,
Drifting among the trees,
Smothered by the blanket of fog
Like a candle deprived of air.
I run my hands along the oaks' rough bark,
And feel the dampness on the leaves
That lie in the mud beneath my feet.
I cannot escape
This forrested fortress.
It holds me as fast as the Earth holds the moon,
Crushing me in its grasp.
Will you find me
When I am there?
Lend me your hand,
Your smile,
Your laugh.
Or do nothing at all.
As long as I can feel you standi
Talking never helps,
Not to you.
Not to anyone else.
We can speak for hours,
But we are moving in circles,
Chasing our tails,
While we spin our tales,
Only wasting time.
Never on the same page,
Never in the same book,
Never on the same shelf,
Never in the same library.
You never understand.
And I never understand why.
Robin egg,
Every spring I see you
Beautifully blue,
Like a piece of sky,
Shaped with the softest curves,
Like gentle clouds.
But you are nestled in grass,
Not a nest,
And you are broken.
Tiny cracks or large fractures,
The result is the same.
You are cold and alone on the ground,
Your future ruined before you ever had a chance.
There was nothing wrong with you
But you're still dead.
Hush, little baby,
Don't say a word.
Mama's gonna buy you a mockingbird.
And if that mockingbird won't sing,
Mama's gonna buy you a diamond ring.
Even though the skies are black,
And filled with smoke from the burning racks.
The lingering air here reeks of gas,
No, little girl,
We're not coming back.
But if you close your eyes real tight,
You can pretend everything's alright.
And maybe it won't seem so bad,
If you remember all the love we've had.
Hush, little baby,
Close your eyes.
And dream of yellow butterflies.
When you wake,
We'll be gone,
From this world where we don't belong.
I want to go to that place,
The place where the sun shines bright and warm
All day
On the emerald green leaves
Of the forest older than time itself,
Where the trees groan and creak as they grow,
And if you're quiet enough,
You can hear them.
I want to go to that place
Where the wild animals aren't afraid,
And neither are you,
So you sit and talk for a while,
And you both understand.
Where the breeze is gentle,
And the water calm,
And the moss is as soft as the softest down,
Where sleep is sound,
And without nightmares.
I want to go to that place
Where hate and fear die,
And only love exists.
But I can't take you with me,
If you love something,
Let it go
Is just a way of saying
I don't care enough
To try.
If you love someone,
You should hang on
For dear life
Because
At the end of the day,
Love is the only thing
That no one can take away.
Together, we stand,
Side by side, before the edge,
of the world.
Into infinity stretches the unknown,
Inky black waves of uncertainty,
Threatening to engulf us,
Should we fall.
I glance at you,
Standing beside me,
As the night bears down.
And though the sun has long departed,
Our surroundings are not dark.
I think back,
To the days of our past,
Brightened by smiles and laughter.
Then, with my eyes wide open,
I take the first leap.
I only hope you will be there beside me.
Today, I do not need help.
Today, I can stand.
Resolute against the failures of yesterday,
Firm in the face of the trials of today.
Weakness melts in the fire of my resolve.
Today, I am strong.
Tomorrow, I may weep,
Despondant and gasping great gulps of air,
Laden with self-pity and regret,
But today I am strong.
Today I can stand.
Will you find me,
When I'm lost,
Wandering in that place,
That place without light,
With all the muffled sounds,
And a million miles separating us.
I find myself there often,
Drifting among the trees,
Smothered by the blanket of fog
Like a candle deprived of air.
I run my hands along the oaks' rough bark,
And feel the dampness on the leaves
That lie in the mud beneath my feet.
I cannot escape
This forrested fortress.
It holds me as fast as the Earth holds the moon,
Crushing me in its grasp.
Will you find me
When I am there?
Lend me your hand,
Your smile,
Your laugh.
Or do nothing at all.
As long as I can feel you standi
Talking never helps,
Not to you.
Not to anyone else.
We can speak for hours,
But we are moving in circles,
Chasing our tails,
While we spin our tales,
Only wasting time.
Never on the same page,
Never in the same book,
Never on the same shelf,
Never in the same library.
You never understand.
And I never understand why.
Robin egg,
Every spring I see you
Beautifully blue,
Like a piece of sky,
Shaped with the softest curves,
Like gentle clouds.
But you are nestled in grass,
Not a nest,
And you are broken.
Tiny cracks or large fractures,
The result is the same.
You are cold and alone on the ground,
Your future ruined before you ever had a chance.
There was nothing wrong with you
But you're still dead.
Hush, little baby,
Don't say a word.
Mama's gonna buy you a mockingbird.
And if that mockingbird won't sing,
Mama's gonna buy you a diamond ring.
Even though the skies are black,
And filled with smoke from the burning racks.
The lingering air here reeks of gas,
No, little girl,
We're not coming back.
But if you close your eyes real tight,
You can pretend everything's alright.
And maybe it won't seem so bad,
If you remember all the love we've had.
Hush, little baby,
Close your eyes.
And dream of yellow butterflies.
When you wake,
We'll be gone,
From this world where we don't belong.
I want to go to that place,
The place where the sun shines bright and warm
All day
On the emerald green leaves
Of the forest older than time itself,
Where the trees groan and creak as they grow,
And if you're quiet enough,
You can hear them.
I want to go to that place
Where the wild animals aren't afraid,
And neither are you,
So you sit and talk for a while,
And you both understand.
Where the breeze is gentle,
And the water calm,
And the moss is as soft as the softest down,
Where sleep is sound,
And without nightmares.
I want to go to that place
Where hate and fear die,
And only love exists.
But I can't take you with me,
If you love something,
Let it go
Is just a way of saying
I don't care enough
To try.
If you love someone,
You should hang on
For dear life
Because
At the end of the day,
Love is the only thing
That no one can take away.
Certainly,
If the head knew that the heart existed,
Nobody would love,
For that is surely for the wiser.
Surely our path is safer if we think our way through life instead of feeling.
But the head is as ignorant of the heart as the heart is of the head,
And we can no more understand love than we can deny it,
Or stop its workings within us.
We cannot hope to change it,
And perhaps we were never meant to,
For somewhere there is a school girl falling in love with a drug addict,
A man on the streets falling in love with the woman in the expensive apartment,
By whose alleys he sleeps at night,
A soldier is falling for a citizen he prot
Current Residence: Neoga, IL Favourite genre of music: Rock or Country Operating System: Windows 7 MP3 player of choice: iPod classic Favourite cartoon character: Charlie Brown Personal Quote: "A question that sometimes drives me hazy: am I or are the others crazy?"-Albert Einstein
Favourite Movies
Beauty and the Beast
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Zac Brown Band
Favourite Writers
Lewis Carroll
Favourite Gaming Platform
Wii
Tools of the Trade
Pen, Paper, and my computer.
Other Interests
Writing, horse riding, animal training, reading, playing music
Well, it's been forever since I've even glanced at DA. Or at least it seems like it. Looking over my past journals and poems, I realize how awesome things are now compared to before. I'm out of high school, I'll actually be moving in a couple years, I've gotten rid of the stupid people that I've had stuck around, and I have an amazing boyfriend. :) So maybe I'll have some things to upload soon. Maybe even some photos or drawings or something different. Maybe a short story. I don't know, it seems like a good time to switch things up a bit.
So, I realized that my last journal was from months ago just now. I haven't been very active on DA recently, so I appologize to the people I haven't responded to. I'm sorting through my messages slowly, but I am sorting through them. You are not being ignored.
Well, Christmas break is here. No school for about two weeks. I desperately need the break right now. I can't be around these people anymore, I can't even think about them. There's too much going on around me, and I really just want to curl up in a corner and wait for it all to go away. =/ However, that doesn't work and it really hurts my back. To be honest, none of this really matters
Ugh. First cold of the school year. x.X I feel very... oogy. But anyway, I digress. School has started and I'm thinking my class load is going to be pretty easy this year. I still have an abundance of extracurriculars though. Hell, I have so many extra things, I should be getting class credit for them. I also should get a PE waiver for all the walking between my classes. o.O But then, life isn't fair. :D I'm needing to get ready for D&D this Friday (rewriting the dungeon. Donjon feels too random to me.) and I need to practice guitar for jazz band. Oi. I'm feeling majorly overwhelmed right now, especially with guitar. I'll get it though. I jus